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Thursday, April 8, 2010

Red Rose Apologies and Silver Lined Thank-You Notes

I'd like to take some time and make some apologies. I recently wrote a letter to my mom apologizing for some things from the past, and I think everyone deserves apologies sometimes. So, first of all, I want to apologize for the fact that I don't keep in touch...with anyone. I say it's because I don't really have a lot of time and that's because I really don’t have a lot of time, at all. I am busy with work, school, babysitting, sleep, and pretty much trying to keep my head on straight. I stress myself out way too much and it gives me less and less time to do the things that matter most in life.

So I’m sorry that I never talk to anyone, I never call people and rarely text them unless I they text first. I usually never reply to any e-mails, or Facebook things, because I am in a hurry of there is way too much to catch up on and it makes me tired even thinking about it.

I’m also sorry that if I do talk to anyone, it seems like I don’t want to be talking to them. Because I do, I just don’t know what to say...ever. I need to work on those social skills :) I’m sorry to anyone that I have ever hurt, in any way. Whether it was verbally or physically, whether we are still close or not, I’m sorry.

And I’m sorry to my family. I missed my new nephew’s birth because I was at work and I cried because it was my brother’s first baby and I have never missed a birth. I was so upset at myself, even though it wasn’t my fault, because I feel like I’m growing so far from the ones I need the most. I love everyone that I have ever had in my life, because no matter the experience I had with them, I learned something. I’m not regretting anything I’m just sorry for things. I don’t really have regrets because if it weren’t for the trials in my life I would never be the person that I am today.

And I want, also, to say thank you, to everyone in my life for your impact, your help, your love, everything. Especially to Tylor, because he helps me through things I can barely get through and listens to me cry over nothing. I love you, Tylor.

I’m sorry if this blog wasn’t as upbeat and exciting as usual. But it’s not really an upbeat and exciting day either :)

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