Life can never be easy, nor can it ever go according to plan

I love how you can go along with a plan in mind..and it never works out...NEVER. It's so frustrating and I'm sick of it.
I'm sick of people being rude to you for no reason whatsoever, I'm tired of being treated like a child. Because I am NOT a child and I'm a lot stronger than people think I am. I'm not some spoiled brat who got everything she wanted her entire life, and I REFUSE to be treated like one any longer.
I know what I want in life and I'm willing to work for it. No one can stop me now.

I can see clearly now..the glass is gone!

So..today I finally got my new set of contacts..and after almost a year without them i had to deal with the new, "I can feel something on my eye" feeling all over again. It was weird wearing them the rest of the night especially because i thought more people would notice, and they really didn't. But, oh well, because I'm happy! I love that i can look around with only my eyes and not have to turn my head along with my eyes to be able to see what I'm looking at. Tylor paid for them because he knows how much i have been wanting them and even bought me new eye makeup because i haven't been wearing a lot because with glasses you can't really tell if I am or not. Afterward, he took me to lunch and we went our separate ways to work. We had a great day! Thanks babe!

Babies Galore...

I got to see my new nephew this weekend and he is so beautiful! I got to hold him almost all night and it was great to see my family again. I've missed them all so much. Also, my friend had her baby shower and I made her a diaper cake, and we gave her a few things that she will need because we figured she would be getting a lot of clothes. I can't wait for her to have her baby! I am going to try to see if I can visit my nephew next weekend too! His name is Mason Ricks Wilson and he was 6 lbs. when he was born and perfect! well, that's all for now.. Have a great day!

Red Rose Apologies and Silver Lined Thank-You Notes

I'd like to take some time and make some apologies. I recently wrote a letter to my mom apologizing for some things from the past, and I think everyone deserves apologies sometimes. So, first of all, I want to apologize for the fact that I don't keep in touch...with anyone. I say it's because I don't really have a lot of time and that's because I really don’t have a lot of time, at all. I am busy with work, school, babysitting, sleep, and pretty much trying to keep my head on straight. I stress myself out way too much and it gives me less and less time to do the things that matter most in life.

So I’m sorry that I never talk to anyone, I never call people and rarely text them unless I they text first. I usually never reply to any e-mails, or Facebook things, because I am in a hurry of there is way too much to catch up on and it makes me tired even thinking about it.

I’m also sorry that if I do talk to anyone, it seems like I don’t want to be talking to them. Because I do, I just don’t know what to say...ever. I need to work on those social skills :) I’m sorry to anyone that I have ever hurt, in any way. Whether it was verbally or physically, whether we are still close or not, I’m sorry.

And I’m sorry to my family. I missed my new nephew’s birth because I was at work and I cried because it was my brother’s first baby and I have never missed a birth. I was so upset at myself, even though it wasn’t my fault, because I feel like I’m growing so far from the ones I need the most. I love everyone that I have ever had in my life, because no matter the experience I had with them, I learned something. I’m not regretting anything I’m just sorry for things. I don’t really have regrets because if it weren’t for the trials in my life I would never be the person that I am today.

And I want, also, to say thank you, to everyone in my life for your impact, your help, your love, everything. Especially to Tylor, because he helps me through things I can barely get through and listens to me cry over nothing. I love you, Tylor.

I’m sorry if this blog wasn’t as upbeat and exciting as usual. But it’s not really an upbeat and exciting day either :)