so..it's been a while

and yes. i am finally out of yearbook.. and i miss it :( but, it's for the best. I am starting school in November for Medical Assisting, it should be great fun. Especially since i have been going crazy being home with nothing to do. Also, having to lie around not doing anythin due to a broken ankle. Oh, life :)

Today, October 15th, is mine and my fiance's one year anniversary. and due to the date, i would like to clear up any misconceptions..

yes, i am only 18 years old and no longer live with my parents, but with my boyfriend.

yes, i struggle daily with many many decisions that i would not have had if i haad gone through with my previous plan.

and, thanks to all that, i have found out more about myself, and i respect myself alot more, because i know that i can stand up for what i believe in and do what i know i will be able to do and not give up.

and..NO my life is not ending, i will not give up any of my hopes and dreams because of these choices. i will not give in to all of the many surrounding things that affect my everyday life.

I AM STRONG.

and no one can or ever will change that.

Thoughts on Growing Up

Where I am


When it’s my birthday,
I’ll go buy a jar of pickles.
I’ll find my mother just like the little bird in that old children’s book.

When I go off on my own, I’ll struggle with finances due to a certain lip gloss addiction.

When I find the one, I’ll be more than blushing, and I might finally be happy.

When I have children, I’ll change the world. I’ll send someone into the world that I hope will be better that I ever was.

And when I see everything happen, my little nephew get married, and my daughter get her heart broken, I’ll cry.

When I finish my days, I hope they will have been more than I ever dreamed.

And when I finish this poem, I’ll be stressed about the future.

When I finish this poem, I’ll be happy to be where I am.